The map that led me here

I have gone astray
I am not in line
Who am I?
Who was I?
We’re not the same

I designed the costume
I foresaw the future
Was it like
the present?
It feels so strange

I hope I could get along with the person who I was
My hopes and fears have equally come true
I wish I could tell myself that I never lost the way
I keep on drawing the map that led me here

I despise traitors
I could never be one
Who does that
through my hands?
Illusions fade

All the time I waited
felt like going nowhere
I tried and
succeeded
– but not as planned

I hope I could get along with the person who I was
My hopes and fears have equally come true
I wish I could tell myself that I never lost the way
I keep on drawing the map that led me here